Never Stop.

Today, My head hurts. So does my Arm.

Not because of a physical trauma, no.

Not because of some illness, no.

And not because of some malnutrition or dehydration. These things are well squared away.

Why than, would my head be pulsing, my memory scattered, my muscles ache, and my focus seemingly disarray?

I've been on a social media fast the last 6 days. Only fallowing a physical fast the first 2 days. I feel great in the sense I've learned much from my time away from the Media distractions. I feel great in the sense my body has rebooted and I've been able to muster up a short yoga session each morning.

And ultimately, I've never been more sure in my direction in life than right now.

What than, could possibly be weighing on my mind so hard that I am experience a physical reaction, or manifestation, as a headache, and sore muscles? It's not just some random thing, no. And It's on and off periodically. So, Each time I experience a physical frustration of some sort, I narrow down, I hone in. What could be the SOURCE, the ROOT problem?

At all while reading, have you answered, or thought to yourself; Emotions?

You'd probably be right! Here's why:

My wife got this notion one day, and she says to me: I just want to give everything away and move our family into an RV. We can see anything and do anything we want, so why are we still in this freezing cold town?" - or so my memory serves.. Whats even More odd?? I shared the Same Vision.

Well, now almost 4 years and 3 children later, we're in the same town, with the same goals, and the same ideas about our life. Only now they are much bigger, Much more Real, and our abilities to reach them have increased alongside our ambitions for our lives.

We Made the Call. This is the year, just like last year. And the year before. And Before That..ehem..

Though this time, It's different. This time, We've learned from all our hesitation. Guess what I've been doing?

I've sold almost every item we own. There is still many small things left, though we have almost every piece of furniture-including our bed-sold. I have been sorting through every belonging we have, all my kids toys, my clothes, all our home essentials, food storage, camping gear, guns and ammo, business tools, sentimental and home Decor. I have had my hands on every single thing we have in this house at least once in the last 2 weeks. How in the world have I had so much time you ask? Why, I'll Tell you! I have not had a job, and "worked" sense Dec. 31st, 2018.

Let me back up. At First, I was given this thought; "Man it would be nice to quit and do my own thing again. Step back out of this comfort and security i have got myself trapped in, and take some kind of leap of faith."

I rejected the idea, added up my income to debt ratio and decided against it in the hopes it was the best choice for my family, as the provider for our well being, I thought, it was the right move. Wouldn't you say?

1 month later I received this next thought; "I feel like I'm about to get fired..." As I Squealed to a halt in my tracks for a moment, I wondered, "Why would I get fired? don't think that way! You'll only bring it onto yourself. Your doing great look at all your success, you make more hourly than every one here, minus the property manager-who your about to become-and owner. Your golden. Don't even worry about it".

2 weeks later, A strong impression fallowed that I was soon to lose my job, and if I did not quit, I would be made unemployed by Divine Design.

I was doing well, I was working great, I was totally secure in the sense that I had everything coming together for me. "And besides, I am soon to be given a bigger opportunity, according to the owners words directly to me." I thought. "Stick around until end of Dec. when the holidays pass, and an opportunity will open up for you.". I should have been solid in my thought system there.. So whats this all about??

Dec. 31st, 2018. I was taken off the schedule the day before, for the sake of holiday hours staying on track, and I having the most out of the entire crew including the property manager. So without a thought I accepted the day off. But not before I had an experience.. ***The Change Moment*** Every so often we have moments of impact in our lives. These moments of impact are directly tied to the next big change in our life. They conjure experiences, they muster new thoughts, they cause an interrupt in your "ways" of living, and thinking, and behaving. They Change your Life. These Moments, Change Your Life. * * *

A man came in the front door and straight to the counter, he explained his father had crashed on one of our snow mobiles, and had broken his hand. He was waiting in the truck in a lot of pain. Company Procedure is to immediately "check in" the machine and assess damages, fallowed by taking payment for the damaged equipment, Before' sending them on their way. However, with the father in the car and this man insisting he take him to the hospital in Evanston, I saw no reason we could not charge the card on file after the fact, and asses the damages the fallowing morning, prior to calling this customer to settle up. Which ultimately the customer also suggested, and agreed to. So, I let him go. I supposed I was being the better person, not demanding "Money first!" whilst his father wait in pain with broken bones in the high uinta Snow.

This immediately back fired, as I discovered the fallowing day, the day I was given off, I had not conveyed the agreement to any other staff member-supposing I would be the first one there in the morning to take care of the machine-and received a call at 9am loaded with questions from the property manager, fallowed by the owner, fallowed by several hours of silence, fallowed by the last call I would receive regarding my employment with the company.

I was fired that afternoon.

My first impression was this: ".............................." (There may have been crickets present in the background)

My second impression was this: "I was Warned about this... I didn't listen."

the fallowing days all my bills came due, and knowing this would be my last check and having set all other sources of income on the back burner, in the intent to focus directly on my current job and all its myriad of opportunities. Which, at the time I thought would be the best situation to meet my families immediate needs. I no sooner became very sick. My body ached in ways I had never felt, it was so intense I was many nights with next to no sleep, for an entire week. I was shaking in pain whilst laying completely still. walking would take my mind off of it for only seconds before every muscle in my body seamed to contract in such pain I would whimper in inhales and exhales without control. Warm Showers were a God send, but they proved difficult as I could not remove my own clothing without pain. And I was definitely not asking for help, feeling very pathetic. Though it became a joke a couple times between me and my wife as an excuse for getting assistance. Which, ultimately did not work: She thought it was a joke. I became very prayer-bent. And gave in. At this point I would sit as completely still as possible despite the shivering and aching, and twitching, muscle cramps and all. I lay on the couch staring at nothing with a blanket and pillow. My wife was full of "Every time you get sick you act like your dying, I get sick and I still have to take care of the kids anyway" type of comments, and jokes. Which we both laughed at, As I try and keep a positive mind. Besides, I totally understood, that's a hard reality for most situations with a working father. There's often no one available to help Mom when her times come around. But there was something disturbing me about this particular "illness" I was experiencing. I could not shake it. and for those that know me and the myriad of self cures I keep on hand, It should surprise that I had been baffled by this. No Oil, Tea, Herb, Drink, Infusion or technique I could think up would help for more than 5 or 10 minutes. For the first time in years, I considered and imagined what the ER would diagnose, and if I should go in. Lucky for me, I did not do so. I quickly remembered, and recognized, it was not medications, prescriptions, IV's and Pharmaceuticals I needed. No Herbal Suppliment or Natural Cure could give me a hand up in this if I did not take certain steps. Come to certain realizations. No.. It was All in My Head. Fallowing my many prayers and pondering silent moments, I no sooner received the answer to what I had been pleading; "What do I do Now?" - "How did I get here?" - "Whats wrong with me?". The answer? You did something wrong according to the owner. And you got fired. And Now your sick.. Hm. That's not what I wanted. I quickly realized the need to change my Question: "What purpose for all this, does God have in mind for me?"

I than realized I had been warned three times. "Jamon, quit your job and take up the cause of your creation" to which i responded no, for the sake of comforts and securities. "Jamon, You need to leave. You've still got time to make your own way" No. I said. "Jamon, If you don't leave now, Your going to get fired and you'll be left without a plan" Dec. 31st, 2018; BOOM. It Happened. Why didn't I listen? Why didn't I have the guts to take up what I had already been doing prior to this "Job" anyway? Chase my ultimate purpose in life, really give it a final run and MAKE that CHANGE? After all, I am the Founder of Make Change Mentoring. I am surrounded by Mentors of All sorts. I am the creator of my Life, what's a little gap in income? nothing. Unless... It surprises you, your Flight mechanism takes off like a bat and you hit the ground running like you've just been shot-all inside your head. I think they call that a panic attack. I'd never had one of those before, I'm not so much of one for the "panic" of life. I Mean.. I've got it aalll under control.. Right? Apparently Not. Upon my realization I was almost instantly cured. By the following morning I was well off to an early start, and doing yoga again. My mind settled, my heart came to peace with the experience, I became full of gratitude for the myriad of lessons and the opportunities wrapped around them. I left that place, Physically AND Spiritually, and I'll never go back. And We're so much better off for it; We're moving from this town of lessons and connections to see as many as we possibly can in what time we have. We've come to understand we've stepped off our paths as mentors and creators in this changing world, And we're Right back on Track. We've honed in our focus on our biggest dreams and connected ourselves together in physical and spiritual ways that intertwine more now with our divine roles as parents and spouses, than any time before. We are 2 days from our temple experience as we become sealed as a family, and we've got Big Plans for our growing Kingdom. Our home is downsizing, and our lifestyle is getting a huge Upgrade. We're expanding on our Courses and our business' Vision is coming together again, right from where we left off. We're reaching out and connecting to our influences in ways that keep us up, and keep us focused. We're learning, and growing, and weeding out the garden of our lives. We're Only Keeping What Truly Serves Us. And We're Learning How to Truly Serve. It's the most exciting thing to open your eyes and see your potentials. And it's Incredible to Reach Out, put fear in its place. Truly Hit the Ground Running, and fight the good fight! Through all these Leaps of Life. There's no ditch you can see in this life, that you can't Leap right over in defense of it. Are you Listening? Stop Saying No. There are no maybe's, this is a do or don't life. So... You can Go Get Your Goals. Or, you can watch me get mine. Either way, Life has a way of helping you get where you nee to me if you're willing. Take this Nudge; LEAP.

- Jamon M