I Have Powerful Energy

This post is Long overdue...

But the story keeps going regardless, so the more we wait, the more we have to tell!

The last blog post I made was "Leaving Sooner" on March 6th

However, we did create two Video blogs on our "Leaps of Life" page on facebook. Those two videos gave pretty good detail of what happened and where we are, what massive leaps we had to take, etc. I really encourage you to watch those videos, so you could be filled in a bit more, with our incredible journey!

Jamon's video - Part 1

Rizzie's video - Part 2

Alright, i would like to explain to you, how much patience I have had, and the Why behind not staying consistent with blog posts since March 6th. On March 7th, I open my laptop bag, take out the laptop, and I turn it on. Beginning my day, with integrity and following up with the many obligations I had that day. As the 'loading' sign sat there for maybe 30 minutes, Instead of taking me to my login screen, it took me to a screen I have not seen before. The big blue screen that informs you of a corrupted software, and you must repair it, before we can take you any further! As a Photographer, a blogger, a good mom who takes a million pictures of her children for keepsakes... This was scary.

Having to repair my computer, with all my files, and all my memories, and the risk of losing EVERYTHING upon repair... I held off, until i could figure out how to handle this situation.

I eventually took the computer to my brother-in-law, and he told me i would need to reinstall the software, transfer it to a flashdrive and then repair it, with the hope that i could back up all my files, but to expect the exact opposite.

I pull out my 1Tb hard drive, only to find out my hard drive was damaged. Somehow in this move, it broke and I no longer have access to my thousands of pictures and files from the last 6 years of work and life. So, devastated, I placed both my hard drive and my laptop back in the bag and put them in storage!

The extra laptop I picked up in Evanston, before our move, was a blessing! However, it was slow, and would not process anything within a speed i usually work at. I had to learn more patience. And with school, moving in, working to establish a home... The time was simply not there, for me to sit and wait, just to make a blog post.

I resorted to a video blog, that made it super quick, to get out what i needed to say. I was able to come back to a clear mind, knowing I was up to date, and I need only move forward and up from here...

A week Later, I took my broken laptop out of the bag, and decided i was ready to give my past away, and move up into a greater perspective, with a clean slate. A [factory reset] of my computer and my brain. It took a lot to be mentally ready to give up all my beloved memories and work from the last 6 years. So I am grateful I gave myself the time I needed to be prepared for the worst. Wo and Behold, I was not allowed to back up my files, so I did lose everything upon repairing the computer. But, I had a brand new computer. Clean slate!

It actually felt VERY good! I was ready to do much more with my online blogging and work.

About 6 hours later, my computer died. Simple fix, right? plug it in, and charge it! I did so, and waited. Only to come back 4 hours later, to see that it was not charging. I moved the wire around a bit, and it then began to charge!

So, I now have a short in my charger cable. About a week later, fiddling with this cord to keep it charging, it eventually stopped working all together. It won't charge my laptop any more. So now that i have a beautiful brand new laptop, I no longer have a way to charge it, therefore not being able to use it.

I decided to suck up my attitude and test my patience on the very slow laptop in the bag.....

I pulled it out today, and from the moment I turned it on, until it finally opened up a page to type this beautiful blog post (45 minutes). The typing lags, I can type a whole sentence and it would delay the display about 5-10 seconds. It has taken me 35 minutes to get to this point.

One more thing I would mention. Since turning on this laptop, It has been beeping at me, nonstop. Over an hour of deep thinking, sleeping kids, peaceful music, and a very loud beeping noise that tests my patience further!

I sent a video to my husband, to show him what this computer is doing, and he said to me "You have a strong energy and everything around you reacts directly according to what you're projecting.... Literally. It's your super power, and you don't even know it! God's Funny." Oh my goodness, how true this rings to me! I feel as if i have No luck with electronics, whatsoever. And all it is, is my energy pouring out into it all! There was no clear reason as to why any of this stuff is happening, but it happens!

So i sit here, writing this post for you all, knowing my head will probably explode here soon, with all this beeping... Things will get better, I know they will. You wanna know how i know? Because if i want things to get better, I must get better. If i want things to change, I must change. It starts inside. Love you all!